My brother now knows about my blog. I thought knowing would be the end of it, but then he came in and started pestering me to see it. He sat next to me, refusing to leave, saying "Blog." over and over again and poking me until I finally showed him. Then he laughed at everything I'd written and called me insane. I took offence at that, but I tried not to let it show. He doesn't have to rub it in my face.
Why do little brothers do this?
I guess in my case it's because he thinks he's the big brother. He's never looked up to me, especially now that he's taller than I am. I could live with this... but it's just that he's never shown me any respect. Not as a big brother, not as a brother at all. When we were young we were always called twins; maybe that's why we sort of consider ourselves equals agewise. But... we're just different. Our interests, preferences, the way we live, all different. I can accept that. But him? When's the last time he hasn't taunted me for doing anything at all? Brotherly competition is one thing, but it starts to wear you down after awhile.
I know he's younger than I am. Does that mean I should excuse him for being less mature? No! The truth is, in many ways he's more mature than I am. Or at least adult, but whatever. I grew up fast, but much as I hate to admit it he's grown up faster. I'm still playing with my inner child, but he's up and running. He's smart, he's talented, and during the times when I don't want to just strangle him I'm actually proud to have him as a brother.
I just wish he would say the same about me.
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And that's why I can't let anything be seen. No matter who annoys you, they'll just annoy you more about the thing you don't want to show them. Your blog is personal and he has no right to make fun of any of it.
I know exactly how you feel. Except I have two siblings. Don't think you're the only one who has to put up with stuff like that.
At least your brother isn't abusive. I blame mine for my low self esteem. If he acted different towards me when we were younger, I would've turned out another person.
My sister doesn't look up to me for anything except my taste in music. She's being shaped into something she shouldn't be. If my brother makes a stupid joke, she'll laugh just to get on his side. I guess it's natural for her to move towards the older sibling, but it hurts if the joke is about me.
I don't know how many times I've been called 'emo' and had two people laughing.
It's like a gang.
At least you don't have a gang.
I understand though.
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