Sep 15, 2007

Comments = Happiness

I can feel my heart pounding against the inside of my neck. At first I thought it was going too fast. Then I realized I was hearing the beat as my valves closed... and the second, quieter beat as they snapped open again. Or maybe it was the other way around. It's hard to see from the outside. It's strange - when you take a pulse, you only feel one beat. When you listen to your heart itself you feel two. Peculiar? Maybe not. But it seemed so at the time.

These are the things I am afraid of:

Round objects
Dead birds
Pills
Broken glass
Public humiliation
Subjectivity
Comas
Glitches
Reality glitches
Cartoons who kill
Hitting the ground
Threatening dogs
Personal demons
Hurting people
Hurting people and not caring
Being alone
People without the ability to reason against themselves
Animals with the wrong number of eyes
Being trapped
Self-disgust
Emotional whores
Small tornadoes
Large tornadoes
The ends of needles breaking off under my skin
Being lost
Being eaten alive
Eating something alive
Split fingernails
Insects that lay eggs under your skin
False happiness
Certain jellyfish
Drowning in something other than water (sand, rotted vegetables, liquefied pigs, etc)
Having eyes stabbed out/sewn shut
Evil

2 comments:

Masquerade said...

Those are all very frightening.
Why drowning in anything but water? Drowning in water is terrible too.

Nine said...

You can drink water...