"You're the closest to Heaven that I'll ever be." It probably sounded like a compliment at the time.
I almost lost control again. Just like I was afraid of. I can still taste flesh between my teeth. I can offer no excuses; there are none. Just guilt. I won't be forgiven forever. I can't even forgive myself now.
"You're the closest to Heaven that I'll ever be." That hurt. It did. Not just the thought that I could be comparable to Heaven - which I'll never be convinced of - but the idea that she's already resigned to having no Heaven. It's saddening. The most wonderful thing in the world, and I can't share it because we're both too afraid. I feel like screaming. I always do.
Today has been... saddening.
3 comments:
i don't want it to hurt.
Hey Seven, hold strong buddy. Things will work out. It might not seem like it , but eventually you'll look at this post and say "Wow, that's funny"
It was anything but funny.
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