the collapse continues

By the time I was ready to talk I'd hit my monthly trough. By the time that cleared up I was in trouble with the school. By the time that cleared up it was exam crunch time. It still is. I'm busy. I'm stressed.
I need to concentrate.
If I don't focus on what I'm doing, I slip. If I don't watch myself when I'm walking, I fall. If I don't stay on task when I'm working, I get distracted. If I let myself think too hard, my brain goes into spasms.
Everything has to suppress everything else. I have to stay steady. Keep a tight ship. Never let anything go.
I have to stay in control.